Frustrations...

Sorry this one wont be upbeat... I am using this as kind of like my journal so heres a bad day.

I am so frustrated. Lately all I can seem to do is make all of our friends mad at us. I'm so tired of the fake smiles and the hollow greetings. I just want to punch them in the face and tell them to quit pretending to be nice. I'm so annoyed that time and time again there are parties that Adam and I just are conveniently not invited to, because some how they just forgot! Which is quite ironic saying since Adam has been friends with them his whole life! I wish people would 1) grow up 2) get over their crap 3) quite lying! I've never been more annoyed or disgusted by how easily people can lie! Sorry, I was raised that you tell the truth REGARDLESS of what the consquence may be. I wish all these stupid women would put on their "big girl panties" and act like big girls. I hate drama. I hate the he said she said junk! I hate that I feel like any time I have a conversation with someone I need a tape recorder there, so when whoever I was talking to decides to twist what I had to say I can pull out the tape and say "YOUR A FREAKIN LIAR!"

I miss having real friends that love me, support me and are there for me when I need them. Lately it's been this constant Russian Roulette game of which friend is going to be mad at me next or what the next rumor is going to be about.

I am all about being the bigger person but after a while it gets old and I just want to act childish that once and be just as mean and nasty as they are. I know it does ABSOLUTELY NOTHING but some days it really seems like it would make me feel lots better.

O well, the world is filled with ridiculous people and I just pray that I can find the "magic patience potion" that will allow me to be surrounded by the liars, and the rude people but not be affected by them.

Life!

Well we were able to fix our furance! YYAAAAYYYY!!!! I am so grateful, and it only cost us about $135. I'll take that over having to replace it right now. However, due to its lovely age we will probably have to replace it in the near future. Hopefully in the summer time when we wont freeze to death with out. :)
Life is good. Despite everything and the frustrations that come along the way, I am really happy to say I love where I am and for the wonderful life God has blessed me with.
Adam and I have a phenomenal bishop! He's absolutely amazing. I am getting kind of excited because starting next week Adam and I will meet with the bishop and his wife for dinner once a week and we're going to kinda have a missionary discussion, but the bishop will also be going over the temple, what its about, and what it means. I am really excited! I am not sure Adam and I will get there any time soon but its nice to know that we'll be getting our feet wet for when we decide to go.
I love my ward more and more every week. I am the secretary in the relief society and its given me a great opportunity to get to know a lot of the people in my ward. Its nice to have friends outside of the family.
Well I'm done with my lunch and its back to work I go... but more later :)

O the frustrations of owning a house :(

So as sad and devastating as it is.... our furnace DIED!! Well actually the fan motor died, but our furnace is almost 30 years old and so we aren't even sure that we can find one to replace it. If we can replace just the motor we're looking at $180-$400 to replace it, however, if its the furnace to replace... well lets just say the thousands (like $4000+):(.
We haven't had our furnance since sometime Friday evening... so it's been 'lil electric heaters to keep the pipes from freezing but other than that... our house is kinda, well COLD! Due to it being the weekend we couldn't get a hold of anyone to help us and anyone we could get a hold of didn't have a clue on HOW to help us. So hopefully tomorrow will bring better news than what we had for the past couple days. I'm hoping we can find an answer quickly.
It seems that when we try our hardest to get our finances in shape and get out of debt everything we own tries to break. I wish some days I had a wand like Harry Potters and I could just shout "REPAIRO" every time anything broke. However, since I greatly lack in this ability I guess its just left to lots of praying and crossed fingers.
Well that is it for now... hopefully more later :)

Always up for something new...

So in Collette's letter she sent she said how nice it would be if all of us siblings got blogs so she could get a peek on how life is going. So I figured I would take the challenge, heaven knows I rarely use a journal anymore so this will kind of be mine.

Life has come so quickly, each time a month ends it makes me realize how fast life is going by. I have so much I am doing and it always seems that when I cross one thing off of my list of things to do another hundred fall under it. School is getting harder as the days go by. I am enjoying the challenge, but I greatly miss the freedom I had when I wasn't in it. I know the outcome will be worth it but, somedays its just tough.

Work is always fun and challenging. Somedays it seems that as the office manager I never get to the bottom of the things I need to do. But working with the kids makes it all worth while. If I ever doubt what I am doing or why I am where I am, the simple smile of one of my wonderful kids makes it all worth while. I am not talking about kids of my own but the wonderful children I work with that are disabled. God really does send them as a blessing not as a chore. If we learn to have patience they will teach you things and give you blessings you never knew you were capable of.

Adam and I stay busy and its crazy to think that we have been married over a year. It seems like yesterday that he walked in and swept me off my feet. He is so amazing to me and regardless of all the bumps and sometimes cliffs we've had to climb this year he still loves me and continues to stand beside me. God has been good to us, even though somedays it's hard to see it through all the fog.

Aside from everything I am grateful for all of my family (both my side and Adam's). Somedays it seems like it would be lots easier to pack up, move away, and never talk to anyone ever again, but I know that despite how long the storm may last God will always put a rainbow at the end if we wait it out for it.

Well homework is calling and I have lots of things to do but, I hope that I can do this on a regular basis....