Sunday, February 10, 2008

What A Week...

So this week has been filled with ALOT of things. It's crazy how we go along day by day doing the same things and then BAM all of a sudden something comes along and ruins our routine. This week has been kind of full of them.
I found out on Wednesday that I have Fibromyalgia. WAHOO! No not really. It's really a hard thing to accept but it really answers a lot of questions for me. I don't fill so insane or crazy anymore. I love my family dearly but, growing up my Dad and brothers would give me so much crap about being a "Whimp" and how I need to suck it up. My body has hurt the majority of my life, things that other people thought nothing of, felt like shoving daggers in my back, legs, or hips. It's a relief to know that it wasn't all in my head. I am not looking to use it as an excuse to not do things in life, but it does provide me with some sanity. It's going to be hard because there's no magical cure and there no quick fix. It's a good thing in a way that its causing me to have to be healthier than I am and to be more fit. I know it was a good thing before this all, but now its crucial. If I don't exercise and stay healthy it could be the being of an awfully painful life. I have to start keeping a food and drink journal and how I felt that day. I have to see what causes the flare ups, what makes things better. It's alot but I know I can do it, it will just take a while.
The other glich in my routine was hearing about a possible job opening for an office job thats coming available in March or April. I am really torn on whether or not to apply. I love the job I have but it's not a stable source of income and I love dearly the children and adults I work with. If I apply for this other job and get it I will be making 3 times more a year than I already am, and it comes with 401 K option and lots of other stuff. It's so hard because I feel so committed to the job I am at but at the same time I crave the stability and routine that the other one would supply me with. I am going to fast and pray about it and see what happens. I sure hope things work out like they are suppose to.
O well, other than all this life is good and I am truly grateful for my wonderful husband the amazing support he is to me through EVERYTHING. God does give us trials to make us better even if it takes forever to see what it did for us. I love life and living and look forward to what the future brings. Hope all is well with everyone else!

4 comments:

Mamma Letty said...

I think you and I are alike in that we are very loyal...that being said you should look into this job option. If the place you are working now can't provide you with the stability, I say you need to change.
It isn't about who you will leave behind at that job. You can still keep in touch with them. But you should be looking out for your family's best interest!
Have you read the book I sent you yet?
This could be a great tool to helping you get out of dept and to get ahead...

Mamma Letty said...

Also, and more importantly. Sorry to hear about your diagnosis...although I would concur that is probrably nice to know what is going on. I like being able to control some of the variables. We'll have to chat this next week when we are up there. I hope you are feeling well and really I think you should seriously look into the other job! At least apply. You never know maybe you would love it!

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Mamma Letty said...

ohhh I love the new background.
It makes me want to be somewhere warm!